"Critical" Story

Time: 2.39am
Date: 4th November 2007

Hi guys, i have seen so many entries regarding revelations, sharing of the word and i guess its time i write something on the blog too, :p. Well, i observed that all the entries posted are very relevant to everyone, edifying, encouraging, enpowering and very educational. People who read them are enpowered especially the aquiring of wisdom & fear of the Lord. Well, i am sure that the cell group are growing, stronger and stronger, faith to faith, glory to glory. People are educating themselves, encouraging themselves to look upon the Lord for wisdom, understanding and love. It seems that people are really stepping out of their comfort zone and beginning to make a difference in the society, in people's life. Well, certainly, as a cell group blog, we edified and esteemed others more than ourselves, thus if there is any offense to whoever he or she might be after reading my posts, ha, please forgive me and i sincerely want to say sorry to you.

Yup! Questions are a constant in our life. It is the same as Change which is also a constant. Questions brings about answers which brings about changes, be it in our life, society, culture, standard of living etc etc. If we do not have questions, we are not progressing. Throughout history, well if you study them, well dun doubt, you studied them, eg, bible; human beings are progressive creatures, as the bible are being preached, as God gives us the anointing and inspirations, humans beings begin to develop, Science and Technology, Finances & Economies, Systems and Buildings are established. Thus questions are inevitable, we must also ask questions to improve ourselves, to enrich our knowledge and comprehend the importance of numerous complex systems in our societies. Thus so much for explaination, it lies to one point. I have a question...

Are we being true to ourselves?

1,2,3! raise up your hand if you think you are, and please do not response if you think you are not. Sometimes, in the course of persuing something, achieving goals and dreams, discipling people, we completely forget about oursleves, we rushed through the heavy duties in our life, stretching ourselves to the limits and eventually daily stuffs kept on going and going. Yup! that is solid, good, we are being fruitful, fully utilising the time God has given us cause He tell us to number our days, remember? ok Grayson, please get to the point!

Putting up a front for people?

Huh? Why did you ever say that?Did we put up a front and show people who we are?Questions upon questions clouded my mind. Well, the underlying answers, only you will know. I just want to share something, not ego or anything cause like what bible says, out of the abundance of my heart, the mouth speaks. Yup! thus after reading, you all can evaluate me, ha! Bing always tell me one thing, " Weishan, dun always please man!" I do not really understand the questions when he told me one and the half year ago, and he told me again, one year ago, i still do not understand! " Bing, i never leh!, i really think doing it makes me happy and people are happy too ma!"
" Weishan, dun always please man!"
Finally, i begin to evaluate myself, well it seems to be the darkest time when everything in my life falls apart recently. Am i pleasing man? Why am i doing all these things? Thats when the theif comes in to steal, kill and destroy, faith begin to dissipate. Finally, after sometime of struggling, i awaken to realise that all the while i am doing everything for God, to see the happiness of people smiling as their lives improved as you make changes to their lifes, their enviornments, a sense of satisfaction. I am sure you all have that kind of feeling. : )

Some people, throughout their lives are always putting up a front for others to see. They live life to the "fullest" as i called it cause they are always covering themselves up, afraid to expose their flaws, their deep secrets. Their presentations made them the limelight, people are so inspired by them, people look up to them, to people they look so perfectly fine, whereas inside them, they are so fearful of people knowing their abilities and insecurities. I do not deny, i am one of them, haha! Well, there are always two sides to a coin, there are people that i see that is so broken, true and genuine. Their presentations are so real so concrete that you will know their foundation is really built on a rock and Christ is the rock. Temptations and rough moments may come, they may fall, but every fall, every burden they are carrying, they are taking a step, one at a time, climbing towards their ultimate prize. They do not deny their fear, their insecurities, though they may seem weak but these are the true strength that one aquires as they carry the cross and stand in the gap. ( I am not talking about me btw). Though they are tired, they persevere, doing everything out of a genuine heart that little things they do will make a difference, like the starfish stories, though the boy may not save all the starfishes, but for that one starfish, he has actually make a difference.

Making a difference starts from you, yes please do not look around, its you. Actions go with Words. I do not deny the fact about flesh being weak, spirit strong, but questions i want to challenge you!

1) Are we being genuine ourselves? True to ourselves, being double minded as what the bible tells us are denied, thus why do people have to work so hard to become double-minded?
2) What is the underlying motive of standing in the gap and edifying people?
3) Are we putting up a front and hiding, chucking away our little secrets?

These actually boils down to the fact that, how do you think about our cell group?

These questions are not to pinpoint anyone and definitely not to criticise but these questions are questions which i use to evaluate myself and i hope to share with everyone, be it you received or not. Thus after thinking through the questions, if you feel that you are genuine enough, praise God and continue to become a true person, and if you are not, well still praise Him, but i personally feel that its time to evaluate yourself, Why not being true? doing things not just for man but for God who truly loves us and the underlying motives are genuine. I believed that people who always like to put up a strong front is like Shrek the movie, where "he" due to hurts and fear begin to have layers upon layers of emotions repressed like an onion. Like what Bing says at the airport, real changes comes from the heart, do not be hardened, do not feel pressured, but in everyday of our life, be true to our emotions, ourselves, anything that is not pleasing to God, try to change. Some changes may take a shorter time, some may take a longer time, but like what the "God" in bruce almighty says. "Isn't it beautiful that in Christ, anything that is messed up can be cleaned up" ( a little distorted). Isn't it beautiful?

Cell group is a place where brothers and sisters fellowship in the light. A place where people can be edified, enpowered, strengthened. A place where people can share their emotions, happy, sad, anger and joy. A place where people can find solutions for problems they cannot solved. A place where people felt loved. A place where people can feel the unity and every burden can be shared, rising to greater heights, soaring under the wings of the Lord. A place where you do not have to hide and change masks but you and you know in your heart, people around you are true.... what is your ideal cell group?

What is our cell group like?

How to say i love when we do not love? How to share if we not have a relationship with one another? How to grow stronger together if we not help each other? How to help if we do not express to each other how we really feel? How to know if we never ask? How to know what we need to know?

Friends, we change so that we can make changes, not just only for your sheep, not just only to show people that we "really" changed, but its for God and people will know you have change. We rise up not because we have to become a Leader, to be in the limelight, to have a wider social circle, to become what we want aim for, to become someone people will look up to, but all of us are called to become a leader in different areas of our life, our ministries, our marketplace, 2 bring about changes to societies, be it a neighbour's cat. But we rise up, because thats how we choose to believe in God, as what my leader says, "Obedience brings about faith in action". We believed and acted upon His promises and sincerely wants to improve lifes, build people's life so that they can become leaders too, and with the power of One, we can shake nations and move mountains. All these are expressed in simple languages, we know them, but are we making changes in our lifes so that we can make changes in other people's life? Did we really engaged our own cell group members, not just only the marketplace. The people around you are the marketplace people cause their lifes are revealed just in front of you. Stepping out to chnage your own life and other people's life? Are u??

Well, some of you may say that, "Weishan are you not doing the same thing, a pot calling the kettle black?" Well, in a way, i am trying too.. but this is the moment where we need to hold each other to press on? Anyone wanna hold me?( Yes i can see lot of hands , yah you, yes you, yah lots of hands, lots of hands!, your hands, your hands, your hands!)oops!

Friends, let us take sometime off your hectic schedule to evaluate ourselves, to become a genuine person where our light shines not through our mouth but hidden inside us, a fire burning deeply, passionate for God, for each other's well being, that we can minister to one another and everyone will really rise up to another level, not just for helpers but everyone, focusing on what you have, not what you do not have, trusting and resting in God's hands and i believed that miracles upon miracles we can see, happening to all of us..

Old Proverb: A friend in need is a friend indeed. Hey how much do u know me and u????

PS: A simple message for simple people to understand? Ooi! YOU understand ma????

; ))

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