Emofied

The number one cause for death in Asia is nt any disease or accident but suicide caused by depression. What are emotions, why do people feel this way , that way .......
God gave us emotions, so that a song sung touches our heart , we wept. We feel angry when we are being bullied or our family members get hurt. We experience grief when we lost a loved one, and many times we can control, but sometimes overwhelmed , we are hit on , lost , blogged down... We surpressed, we hided, we run away.
"What's the point?" Who understands ?
" Who knows my pain" , What's the point of sharing it".....
So it's classfied or lingo - "emo", where a human being sinks into a relam of thoughts, negative thoughts . the more u think , the more u going in that direction....... spiraling down that abbyss. You gave up hope , everything you stood for. You locked up yr heart and threw the keys away.
But my friends, Jesus is the discrener of hearts .He but nobody had won our hearts and never should anyone or anything steal it again. He's the only one who has the keys from heaven to unlock it. To fix that cold, broken, damaged heart. The fire of God burns every apathetic heart, restores yr brokeness, heals the sick and weak heart. HE knows.... he knows....
Ps 73 -Whom have I in heaven ? There is no one I desire besides You, my heart and my strength , many times they fail, but there is one truth that always will prevail , God is the strength of my heart , My portion forever.
It means in our flesh , in our weakness, in our human abilty to tend to fail , to disappoint others, our hearts experience aches to painful to be muttered. But the truth says put your trust in God and he will renew everything , he will cleanses and purifies it. My portion- it means we are blessed because we are part of Him, part of his Family.It's not easy to trust , esp trust is breached but " little by little" , step by step. A step of faith . We can get up again.
The best worship is nt just an emotional release ,but up lifting and say God will restore he will save , a faith declaration of our life even things look bleak, press on .endure. We will make it . " wo mean xing de".
Take care for this week.

The heavenly hosts
Declare Your praise
How could my understanding
Comprehend Your grace
Your light
Broke through the dark
And now I want to establish
My heart on the Rock

As Your presence fills this place
Please set me before Your face
Whisper to me in my ears
Wipe away all my tears
Your hand
Has lifted me up
I love You that's why I build
My heart on the Rock

I will build
I will build my heart on the Rock
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Hey guys, this is a song that i just wrote. Please feel free to drop some comments and suggestions on how to improve the lyrics. Thanks. See you guys soon!

Hey guys...

I just wanna share : Trust God and Believe.

I started last week not so good, but I ended my week knowing that God had provided me with a miracle. So whatever situations or problems you are in right now, hang on. God will do the provision as you continue to have faith and trust in Him.

Claim the promises as you pray and daily proclaim His goodness.

There is NOTHING that He can't do.
There is SOMETHING you can do : To keep on BELIEVING

Be Encouraged, Be Strong. :)

Sidenote :
Guys, Weishan got through to Round 2 for his drama audition !!! He will know in a week's time if he got in officially, so do keep him in your prayers yeah. He is really excited about it.. hahaha.

Just Sharing...for people who might want to make a difference!!!

Harmony at Any Cost

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. -1 Peter 5:8

Some misguided Christian leaders feel that they must preserve harmony at any cost, so they do everything possible to reduce friction. They should remember that there is no friction in a machine that has been shut down for the night. Turn off the power, and you will have no
problem with moving parts. Also remember that there is a human society where there are no problems-the cemetery. The dead have no differences of opinion. They generate no heat, because they have no energy and no motion. But their penalty is sterility and complete lack of achievement.

What then is the conclusion of the matter? That problems are the price of progress, that friction is the concomitant of motion, that a live and expanding church will have a certain quota of difficulties as a result of its life and activity. A Spirit-filled church will invite the anger of the enemy. ~This World: Playground or Battleground?, 112-113~

"Lord, thank You for the many signs that we are alive! Satan must see real life, and I guess that's a good sign. Give us victory though, that we might not succomb to his attacks. Amen."

JR.

ok,finally i can post something , how i did it ??? don't ask ...
3 things about me, hmm ok loh.....
1) i was a benchwarmer too, . was in the basketball team in pri 5 n 6 , cos my mum thought i need to lose weight seriously cos i was ballooning very fast.My only outdoor sport. Skills ok lah.. I was a prefect , selected to recite the Chinese pledge , but then was stripped of my post cos i did'nt done my homework ... somemore it's my classmate told teacher " jiarong didn't do homework..." " ok, u don't do , i strip off yr tie" the next day it happened. then a few weeks later i was caught jaywalking... but then i was stripped off my position... thus it seems i was demoted cos i broke the rules, in actual fact cos i couldn't cope with my studies.thinking back then i was quite happy cos i got time to study more.
2) yet i was a high flyer too. Considered lah , got good grades , ppl say i was veri intelligent... somehow i was under a lot of expectation.. expect to do this to do that cos they knew i can do it , yet the motivation wasn't there to perform , thus i underperform or simply threw it away..... I had a lot of exposure to increase but i shut up or shy away...maybe because of this incident .... leadership or promotion is something i'm not "used to it'"..... until now... ahah
3) jackson - I don't like this name cos of micheal jackson. I hide this name for 18 years until in army , my sergent called me . Lol, in bmt... i was nt used to it.... " jackson why u looked so stunned " , cos i was nt used to it.... thus i prefer to use it in formal , working environments . Jiarong is my personal name.... N246 is my personal cg... ahaha
4) I don't have a lot of friends . Every phrase of life , it can be counted 1-4 ., the most 4 . I open up to only to ppl i trust and feel comfortable with... I don't like people to know me yet i don't know them.. i like to relate on a one-on-one basis. My life was on the platform before, yet under the platform , i seek good friends i can grow up with...but now it's a different stage...
In summary , it went through the exclusive, inclusive , reclusive stage......

Anything to add on.... let's leave it as it is.

Aim High............ N u will REACH HIGH!

hey guys.. haha sorry I cant help, but can I write 3 more things about myself? It was brought into remembrance when I woke up this morning !!!

4) I have 3 SCARS on my right leg. its pretty ugly. DONT ASK ME TO SHOW OKAY. One was when my sister was chasing after me (primary 3) , I ran and fell into a very big drain. The wound became very infected. One was the oven scar. It was burning hot and yeah.. I remember ed crying out like a child gone wild. Uber painful :( Final one was a wire from the bicycle which cut through my flesh. Wouldn't have gotten it if only my sister and I listened to the maid and stayed at home instead, but oh well. I have to hide the wound from my mom but eventually she found out and my sister got it big time instead.

5) I met with a car accident during my Grandma's wake. Fractured my left arm and right foot. couldn't go to school during the period of time. About a year later, I was riding bicycle when I got knocked down by a car. haha accident prone kid. Now I finally know why mom always ask the maid to keep a good eye at my sister & I and that we're not supposed to play anywhere except home.

6) My favourite childhood cartoon was power rangers and popeye the sailorman. Barbie was my past time game I play. I love Barbie & Ken. I play on their online website too !!! haha I was 100% tomboy growing up, fierce and rough.

HEY GUYS, BLOG LEI. It will be boring if you always see me blogging right.. so come on. BLOGGGGGGGGGGGG!

Oh yah my pic ladies and gentlemen!!!

Hi Guys!!

Wow! Wonderful to read of all these postings about all of you guys life experiences! So of them are realli funny! seems like i chao bay Ki liaoz (cannot run away)... my turn to blog lo...

hmm... 3 things about me...

ok it seems like most of you guys shared bout ur childhood stories... let me share some of mine too...

1)As most of you would know, i grew up in a family amid 3 other silbings and my eldest sis is still the closest to me... I rem when i was young, she would always bring me around in town shopping, jalan jalan and buy me my fav ice cream fr YaoHan Mac( if you guys still can rem!) . During my birthday, she would never fail to buy me gifts and present and there was once she brought me to Toys 'R Us and allow me to choose anything in the store! When we grew older, we would study together overnight until 6 am n proudly to say i was the top 3 while in sec 1! We would cook our fav campbell mushroom soup to keep our tummies happy while we mug all night long... Haha however ltr my sis flew to aust and i had no motivator to study w me liaoz n subsquently became last in sec 2! haha...

2) Among my siblings, my studies was the most jialat among them all. I rem there was once in pri 2 when i scored only 26 marks for my english!! I can never forget that incident man... i was very afraid to speak english then cos i knew i was bad and even my dad label me as JIALAT man... So i was very upset bud during den i was very playful so also didnt real put in effort to improve.... In my family, sometimes i would feel pressure over the things that my siblings have achieved and i would feel upset about myself. Over time... i developed a strong desire to excel in life and always wanted to make a mark in this biG BIG life. I learnt to be positive in life though sometimes can really be v difficult. I lke to visualise gd things happening and imagaining myself continuing reaching goals after goals....WINNING feels shiok man! N i loved adrenaline!! anything that would make my blood travel faster i would very much like to try it. Yeah life is great and we only lived once on earth ya?

3)Another thing which many of you may not know is that i have been into behind bars for more than 48hrs before for the stupid act of shoplifting. Had the chance to tok to gang chief and so siao kia in the same cell oso.. the experience was suxy man... not seeing daylight for so long!Really thank God that eveything else turned out fine if not my future really Har bas (Malay means Finished) liaoz. Yup we made many mistakes along the way in life bud we all pick ourselves up quickly ya...

Thank God that HE has changed me and everything else in me has changed.... my language, my behaviour and of course my FAITH in HIM. I want to achieve more and Shine for HIM! I pray that i would always stay close to HIM no matter wad happen along the way in life!

Yup hey guys so dats three things about me and those who hve not blog.. wad r u waiting for??

Be blessed n hv a great week ahead... gg to zzzzzzzzzzz le.........

The First ThingY First

1) So Ladies and Gentlemen, what do u all know about me? As you all know, I am very talkative. Thus, when I am in primary 4 onwards to now actually, haha, I have talk to a lot of people, a lot of girls actually and guys too. Longest record is 12 hours, with a guy (I am not a gay btw). Maximum Group chats are 13 people which last for 4 hours. BUT, the most embarrassing thing which a lot of people did not know is that I got A CALL from the principle office, some parents complain that I am talking to their girls everyday and they are very irritated. The problem is sometimes the girls or guys just want to talk to me, haha(Stop justifying). Anyway I was called and banned from using the phone for a few months and that really makes me sad. Anyway yeah, the whole school knows but friends dunno lol embarrassing moment.

2) I got 13 girlfriends b4 ( Please dun judge Me!!)
"Really meh? Dun lie lehz!"
"Yup!"
"U not suave not tall how? i dun buy it!"
"Sometimes its not the suave and tall.. anyway i dun wish to talk about it, i repented! well maybe.."
"Let your Yes be Yes, your No be No, anything apart from them is evil!"
"Sorry God, i will not again!"
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3) I acted as "God" before, when i was in Kindergarten 1 studying at Seventh Adventist Church, thus naturally the anointing just flows(erm haha just kidding).. Yeah been in plays since young, top story teller b4, top Debater in school b4. Acted in Three Victoria Theatre Plays but compared to church, still need some space.. Been the bad guy and..erm.. always the bad guy.. Yeah!

Thats all folks for clocking the 3 points, if ya find anyone of them interesting or wanna know more, u can contact me at doey_rainy@hotmail.com. God blesses u all and loves u all! Luv me 2??

2nd JULY
CG SENTOSA OUTING

Hey everyone, these are the pictures taken during our outing. Hope everyone enjoyed it. Haha so another Sentosa Outing soon? September yeah!

Anyway so proud of those who wrote 3 unknown facts about yourself. Lets keep this going, to know more about one another. Although this might not be the best outlet but it definitely serves as an alternative for us to share with one another our thoughts.

HAPPY POSTING.

alright. as many of you have said, enough of reading, and blog!
im keeping my promise. =)
here are 3 things about myself,that i dont think you guys will know.

#1) when i was in kindergarden, i studied in PAP, which was near gram's place. so dad would sent me to school, and grandma would fetch me from school, back to her place. those childhood days were one of the loneliest days of my life. as you know my siblings are older than me by a few years, so they were in primary school then. although my cousin who was one year younger then me studied in PAP too, and goes to gram's place too, but his school was after mine. so granny would bring him to school, and fetch me back. so i played alone all the time, and spent most of my time with grandma. probably this is why im so close to grandma. thus, when i got my first and subsequent pay slip, i would always bring grandma out to a nice place for a meal.
anyway, this incident was kinda dumb, because i thought that as long as something was small, and i was able to swallow it, it did be edible, so i swallowed a 20 cent coin, whicle playing some kitchen set. haha! thank God i didnt get choke. it just when down to my stomach. haha! so i had to go for X-ray. i was super afraid then, and i kept crying, so mom bought me this penguin soft toy, which i still have it now. since the day i swllowed the coin, i had to shit in a potty, until the day the coin was out! =p

#2)moving on to primary school.. every morning, mom would drive me to school, and my maid would fetch me home from school. i cant exactly remember how old i was, probably around primary 3. yep. on a particular afternoon, i was walking to the bus stop to take bus 16 home. there was 2 routes, which i could take. on that day, neither my maid nor i wanted to follow each other. so we took our separate ways, and decided to meet at the bus stop. when i walked with my primary school best friend. she took the MRT home, which was about 200m away from the bus stop. after she left, i had to walk alone to the bus stop. just then, i saw this raggard-looking lady, with fizzy long hair, looked somewhat like a guy,really tann and skinny looking. she was ransack-ing the bushes. considering how yound i was, i freaked out totally, especially when she stared at me. then i decided to walk the other way.(the bushes were in the middle, so there was 2 ways i could get to the bus stop.) when i took the other way, i saw her cycling towards my direction. i got petrified, and went by the previous route, when she tailed me, i got so frightened that i grabbed this stranger's hand and hid behind him. worst still, he was from China! (speak chinese!) thank God this passer-by who spoke english saw the lady shouting and pointing her fingers at me, as if wanting to grab hold of me, asked me what happened, and he scolded the lady?. freaky!! then the chinese youngster walked me to the bus stop, and i met my aunt.

#3) when i was young, i had a habit of staring. on this bus journey home with my maid, the bus was crowded then. my maid sat, while i stand. this lady who was middle-age, yet shorter than me, was sitting in front of me. being akid, i was just curious, didnt know why the lady was like that. her legs coudnt reach the ground. so out of curiosity, i stared at her.she noticed, and told me off vehemently, "if you continue staring, i'll dig out your eyes!" my maid was just sitting behind her, so this old man, who sat beside my maid stood up and told me to sit down, which i did. i was a taunting remark to me, and i never dared stare at anyone ever again. so if you wonder why im always so unaware of my surroundings, now you know. once bitten twice shy you see.

Everyone better start posting now!

Haha yes all of you reading this, especially all you blog surfers from N246. What are you waiting for??? If you have time to read this, please go post something. Like now. Yes i am talking to you. Dont you change website now i tell u.

Okay rubbish aside, pardon my crappy monologue, it's like 130am and i slept 2 hours the night before. Okay i shall share 3 things which you never known about me. I think i really shared alot of my life with you all leh, cant really think of much to write, so i shall amuse you all with some stupid things that happened to me while i was growing up

1) This first one is super malu lor, i will remember for the rest of my life. When i was in kindergarden, i actually poo-ed in my paints during art class. Yes imagine having a pile of poo in the middle of the room that dropped out of my pants when i was painting. Distressed, ignorant and haveing not known better, i actually thought that i could get rid of it by stepping on it. Yes i played too much super mario brothers and i thought that things would go away when i jump on it. Sadly, as creative as i was then, reality continue to have a tight grip over the events that followed. The poo didnt go away. Expectedly. I walked around the kindergarden for awhile with poo at the sole of my shoes, until one of my kindergarden teacher got me washed up and sent home after she smelt and saw the mess in the art room.

2) What else you all want to know? Yes i told you all that i was always the geek that got bullied when i was B.C (Before Christ, just for the uninformed). Maybe this might amuse you, but i have been rejected by girls quite frequently. The total number of rejections that i have endure is a grand total of 3 times! So this is how the scoreboard looks like.

Women-3 Bingren-0

Well i have learnt not to become bitter. Its their loss anyway. Haha.. nah... the right one will come along some day, one day. So to all you singles out there. Relax. We are still young.

3) Okay last thing you can know about me. Hmm... I was the president of the AVA club in primary school? Haha i used to set up the sound system for the school last time. Yes, it was a nerdy job. But hey, its cool to be a geek k. For all you who despise geeks, i can just say that you are probably just jealous of us.

Cheers,
Better start posting soon hor,
Bingren

Alright I shall write 3 unknown things about me:

#1: I actually have a 11 stitches scar on my forehead. I remember it was quite a sunny day so my Ah Ma decided to let my Sister & Cousins & I to go down the blk for a game of "Hide & Seek" I can still remember I was running as hard as I could and having a ball of fun with them... then... My Sister accidentally pushed me down the steps, I lost my grip and fell flat onto the ground. What worst was the sharp edge of a stone actually pierced right onto my forehead.. I was screaming and crying because the pain was simply too great for me to bear at my age. (I guess 4yrs old) And I almost thought I am gonna lose my eyebrow haha. All my cousins was in a frantic state and someone called my Ah Ma down. She hurried picked me up and a compassionate Singh taxi uncle fetched us to the hospital. The doctor operated on me without anaesthesia and tied my hands and legs with ropes... then I fainted. After I awoke.. I got this ugly scar...


#2: I am the apple of my Grandma's eyes. I love my Ah Ma alot but not really my parents. My parents left me in the care of my Ah Ma shortly after I was born. My Ah Ma bring me wherever she goes, watch opera, go market, playground. Whenever we kids queue for sweets, I will get 2 and the rest 1. I always have extra portion. Years passed by quickly.. Soon it was time for me to start pre-school and my parents fetched me home but shortly after, they decided to divorce. It was pretty much a hard time for me back then. I was a young girl struggling to grow up with the changes. My parents then left both my Sister & I in the care of a short-term nanny. I dont like her becos she doesn't love me like my Grandma does. I visited my Ah Ma regularly and she always tell me she would bring only me back to her hometown in China. I remember one day coming home from school (primary 2) 10 years ago, I was playing with my Barbie and my Dad called and told me that my Ah Ma passed away. I was crying every night during the funeral and the last day when they were about to the cover the lid of the coffin I ran with all my might from the back to the front but my Dad caught hold of me.. I was screaming so loudly.. It was the worst day of all and the burying of her was even too much to bear. Even now, I always think of her, she provided me with the love I needed as a child, she love me unconditionally and give me the best during my childhood years. I am so thankful to God for giving me the best person on the earth to love me.

#3: My first crush was in primary 3! haha on my best friend (back then) somemore. haha it was hilarious la. But later on he told me he treat me only as a "jie mei" and never talked to me since then. I was kinda sad then.. I tried all means to be friend with him again but he kept pushing me away. So mean! So since that very fateful day he found out that I liked him, he stopped talking to me and hated me in his heart. I invited him to my 12yrs old bday party but he rejected my invitation :( I bumped into him again during my zonal competition at Joo Chiat CC during secondary school, he still hate me as usual. Those were childish days... But while looking back, it is really funny and a good time to laugh. Needless to say, I miss primary school alot. Suddenly I wanna go back being a 7 yr old girl. HAHA

Okay guys, thats my 3 points. Sorry didn't mean to write compo. (haha!) Just like what Fookai said, dont just read but do write about yourself too. Anything you are comfortable with. :)